things i made this weekend

this scarf (two skeins)


this oil painting, "curmudgeon with diminutive meatloaf" (close-up; meatloaf not shown). it is never going to dry


i feel productive and generally good, nourished, placable

kallie and i made this movie

we made it together, the walrus's name is kulu, we also made a hypnocake that ended up on the cutting room linoleum
the EEA hiatus show went really well, this looked really cool looping on a tv in the darkness
i love when my friends make music. i just want to eat their songs all day and listen to them squeak and warble inside my belly.

charisma

this is my favorite bukowski poem
it is the only bukowski poem i truly love
it can only be found in "burning in water drowning in flame"
i had to look for it tonight because it is relevant to a friend's life
poor kid

i want to share it with everyone, i am going to put it on my blog. the writer is ivre morte in the motel in the sky so copyright schmopyright, i won't get in trouble right


CHARISMA, by charles bukowski

this woman keeps phoning me
even though I tell her I am living with a woman
I love.


I keep hearing noises in the environment,
she phones,
I thought it was you.

me? I haven't been drunk for several
days.

well, maybe it wasn't you but I felt it was
somebody who was trying to help
me.

maybe it was God. do you think He's there?
yes, He's a hook from the ceiling.

I thought so.

I'm growing tomatoes in my basement,
she says.

that's sensible.

I want to move. where shall I move?

north is obvious. west is the ocean. the east is the
past. south is the only way.

south?

yes, but not past the border. it's death to
gringos.

what's Salinas like? she asks.

if you like lettuce
go to Salinas.

suddenly she hangs up. she always does that. and she
always phones back in a day or a week or a
month. she'll be at my funeral with tomatoes and the
yellow pages of the phonebook stuck into the pockets of
her mince-brown overcoat in 97 degree heat,
I have a way with the ladies.

caroline bergvall

a mystery man (upcoming feature?) at the ICA recommended her to me; download these they're cool

lately, i have been reading alex lemon's "mosquito" and the latest elimae

lately i am plain sad for you, future lover

i have a story publishing in the next issue of emerson review, it ain't the paris or mississippi but it'll help validate my major for my parents